I got married when I was 20 years old and have been married for 6 years .I admit that I have cheated on my husband more then once. I remember clearly that the first time was after 2 years into our marriage. It was due to neglect. My husband was never home for me. He works till late in the night as this allows him to earn a bit more money from overtime allowances. So by the time he comes home it is usually in the morning and always too tired for anything and during the day while I am out and going about doing things he would be at home sleeping. It all started on one of the lonely night, while he was away, I would search on the internet for someone to chat with and listen to me. One thing lead to another and sex became a big part in those relationships.
Three months later, my husband noticed some changes, stopped the night duties and the problem was assumed resolved. At first, we started working towards improving the marital issues between us, we started working things out and we again seemed much more in love.
I decided to put those affairs behind me by telling myself that I was young/ naive and not sure of what I really wanted. I soon realized that I wasn't too young after all. I actually really enjoy the attention and the doting by other men and that I do enjoy their companion.
I also realized that there are things that are missing from my relationship with my husband and that it can never be found with him. So I decided to continue searching for other man that can fulfill these missing desires, while I keep them undercover for the sake of my husband.
I really need to come out of this but am so engrossed in it
Really, my advise from a guy would be to tell him your desires. And I am not talking about what you want out of the relationship. You should state what you want sexually. You should tell him what turns you on. You should tell him what causes your wanting. You should also tell him the time of day you wanting happens. You should tell him why you love him. You should say the reasons why you would not leave him. It can be scary. It could bring up problems. It could bring up counter desires. Honestly, if that does happen, try to full-fill them also long as you okay with it. You do not have to say that you have cheated. However, if the character of your man believes in marriage as much as I do, telling him would not end in a divorce. It would take a little longer in understanding. If you cannot find yourself to be truthful to your husband through all of this, I would suggest either deleting this blog or divorcing him. After all, from the mission of this blog is to encourage wives daily. I think if you try to batter through this issue with love and devotion, you can better other relationships in this world. That is a worthy cause.
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